Stressed. This is what I'm feeling now. Our yaya (babysitter) will finally leave us tomorrow. Ate Elvie will no longer do a vacation or day-off. She said she will stay at her sister's house in Bulacan because the husband was assigned in Batangas for a job. No one will be left there with her sister except from the two kids. She has no one to be with to take care of the children. They also said they can't afford to pay for a yaya that's why I can't say 'no'.


Actually, taking care of my daughter full-time is fine with me, of course I am her mother. But the thing is, I am 6months pregnant with our second baby and I need a substitute for me to rest sometime. Its not all the time that her dad is with us. He has work. Though his office is just here in our house as project officer based here in Oriental Mindoro, he still spends some of his days in his project area. And one more thing I am in the middle of finding an online job for an extra income. Well, of course, we will soon feed one more mouth.


I feel divided for my two kids. I want them to be both healthy. I want all the attention will be given to them equally. But how? Aggrrr... I know this is a challenge for me, for us. For how long? I don't know. No one knows. I hope and pray that I would be able to do the right thing for them everyday and in God's will. God is good!